Last week I took another little break from blogging. Not because I had another meltdown, but because I was in my final week of my internship. So it was all about finalizing everything on my internship, as well as handing everything in for University.

It's weird, not having to go to work anymore today. I remember writing a complete blog post about feeling insecure on starting this internship back in January. I was scared that I would not be able to fit in to the team, to not live up to their expectations. To have a 9-5 job, to work five days a week. Whereas before, I would only go to university 3 days a week.

Now that I am writing this post today, on the third of July, almost 5 months later, I feel like I definitely grew as a person. The past five months definitely flew by and June rolled around much quicker than expected. Where five months ago, I would be the quiet student in the back of the class in uni, always taking notes, but never really talking. I was a perfect wallflower. I was there, but no one would really notice me. I had this wall built up around me that I only let a few people break down.


Being an intern, having to talk about what you're going through with your coach at your internship really helped me. Being pushed outside of my comfort zone. It was scary. It helped though, to be pushed outside your comfort zone. Nowadays I dare to speak my mind more in class, at work. My coach from school told me that he noticed such a difference in me as a person. He feels like I am more confident now than I was before. Of course I am nowhere near being as confident as other people are in life. But to me this is a big deal. I grew as a person and I dare to stand up for others, myself and my work nowadays.

The past five months have been a bit of a rollercoaster for me. I had to deal with some loss in the family and I had my friends 'stab me in the back'. And that's when I felt most insecure. I feel like I had to grow as a person because of it all. I felt like it was necessary for me to speak my mind when I was not ok with people talking negative about me, certain things in life or other people. If there's one thing in life that I have come to hate, it's injustice. I talk a lot more about what is on my mind, with lots of different people.


It is scary to take on new things in life. But what I have learned from the past five months, is that talking about what is on your mind helps. Talking helped me grow as a person throughout the last five months. I talked about my progress, talked to friends about what is bothering me. But most important of all  is to talk to people about what you find important in life, in friendships and in general.

This approach in life definitely helping me become the person that I want to be later in the future. Talking to strangers, opening up to friends and just going out of your comfort zone, it helps all contributes to your growth as a person. You get to know the real you. Who knew that interning could give you all of these life lessons.